Sunday, November 18, 2012
It was my birthday. Yesterday.
I wish that I can do better and as I was intended to.
I wish that I treat people around me with more care and love.
I wish that I can find the person who is destined to be with me.
I wish for no more.
As birthday wishes are never ending.
Till the next 25th.
And the next.
Hoping that one wish among all will come true.
Saturday, October 27, 2012
Everyone has his/her own dreams and in order to achieve, passion comes to play the role. Dreams without passion are merely meaningless journey.
After a distance of my new journey, I began to release that I started to miss, or to say, forget my passion and they were recently came back into my consciousness whenever I see the world. It has been a very very long time that I immerse those also-forgotten passions that were burning in my soul which define and characterise me a lot since I was small.
Currently, my passion towards further studies still the main ones as I have made my next step ahead. Hopefully it turns out at least by next year or the other depending on my decision.
Music. The first long lost passion that I always remember. Since I was small, my mother enrolled my sister for music class to ease her children with healthy activities. I remembered that I was around 5 years old, still in the kindergarten sulking with rants when my mother decided to enroll her only.
To be fair, my mom finally put me into the music as well. Astonishingly, I like it very much. From there, I found my first talent in music. Frankly speaking, playing music is like doing lab practicals and therefore comes the test part: Theory.
It's not easy to do it as I was having bad time with my English and lazy to count (as those beats and some rhythmic notations requires simple maths). So, I always stranded myself in theory. Didn't take any test on theory so just took a few test on Organ test. By the way, I started to learn music using an Organ.
Due to time allocation, I told my mom to try piano lesson as well. Logically, once you know how to read the scripts and press the keys from Organ, it's a definite that you can do it as well in piano. Just remembering that the key pressed in piano has its own pressure which leads to the quality of the key hit. Loud, soft or crisps like staccato move.
Too bad. Plus, I had my music class stopped in order to focus myself back into full time study.
Photography. Another indeed a passion that I profound in secondary (high) school when I was 16. It started when some of my seniors invited me to join in the club. Hence, new things to be learnt and we have some photo-shooting jobs whenever the school held events. From there, the supervisor of the club taught me a few extra things and my passion for photography started from there.
I own a digital camera which bought by my mother and it's a Kodak. I chose Kodak as its chip was kinda good back then and the camera is user-friendly. When I started to hold a DSLR, things change and I'm currently eyeing on Nikon and Sony Alphas. So, from photography this blog is kinda initially come with it as you can see I had quite a number of pictures taken by myself (mostly except those credited by their respective owner).
For time being, I have no investment in photography but hopefully I can do it in future time. It's not a cheap passion to be chased anyway, just an interest I had. Having a decent phone that has a good MP is good enough for me to take photo and share in my social networking.
Cooking. Perhaps I was being trained by my mum or the taste buds of mine prefers me to do it on my own, I enjoy cooking. Spicy, sour, sweet, salty. And I fond of herbs. They simply amazed eaters without additional flavoring. In fact, no salt or sugar is used. I began to cook when I saw my father prepared omelette himself. From there, I pick up pans, little bits of oil and an egg.
I keen to learn cooking from my mom whenever she cooks. Unless, those dishes were cooked repetitively. I tried several cooking by referring recipes from internet sites and book. There's a person who inspires me a lot in cooking:- Jamie Oliver. One word: Simple. He cook things with simple ingredients yet creating a meal that is marvellous. I haven't got enough money to buy all his cooking books as I intended to.
I'm also a person who likes to try at new places (eventhough I'm almost broke). I have a few buddies who like to test tasting from one place to another and rate the place. So, anytime (if my wallet still allows me to unfill it) I would be glad to taste and give my own personal opinion. And I'm serious when comes to good and bad in food.
Art. I do it whenever my mood kicks in. Erm, where should I start about my art. Oh yeah, I fond with art during my primary and secondary school. I think it was fun and a place to be creative and imaginative when our hand holds a pencil, crayon, paint or pastel and starts to dribble on a piece of white canvas. It was simply a calm situation for me to draw without guides but my thoughts.
Not much I can talk about my art as I kept my art brushes, pencil colors and pastel aside quite a long time. I should get a new ones if I intend to make an art in future. Perhaps, painting for my own house.
Overall, you can see that I'm quite an artistic person, not a science geek. Just that, I need energy and time to do these things. For me, science stuff is my backbone in my 20s till 50s as I'm depending on it to earn my major income. I planned to stop doing things in science when I reach my pension years and wish to set up a cafe on my own.
So, do you have a passion that burns your heart to do it?
Monday, August 6, 2012
After the day on tomorrow, it will be a complete year for my first job. As a lab officer (aka Assistant Laboratory Manager) in UTAR. Believe it or not? I felt it was like just a month, or two. Felt so short yet I've step this far.
A year of full service meant I gotta be confirmed. Yes, I'm a confirmed staff. And I'm not showing off here (for a certain readers who thinks I'm showing off. Sorry for the late disclaimer). As I was confirmed, my first impression is either happy or sad. Feels like in the middle but more to the down mood.
When comes to doing my job, everyone will say,
"Nigel, we depend on you."
I don't know whether it was a compliment or merely just sending me a smirk. Taking higher steps mean having heavy responsibilities, I feel that but I need to take it slowly and have the obligation to ignore them if I still have unsettle business. I hope people will know everyone has a limit before going overboard.
Anyway, I try to take it positively when my feelings tell me the opposite. Try to climb higher still but remember my limits. Hope all of you understands. :) Currently, I'm trying to get back my track with something I've planned along.
Yeah, master studies.
Now, I'm preparing myself with some early discussion with my supervisor before determine the route for the study. Before that, I would like to deliver my gratitude to my FYP supervisor, Dr. Chee who still have a keen interest on me to become my MSc supervisor. I hope that we will collaborate and make something out from the research. So, up up the way and hope my plan can be carried forward as I was imagined.
Will I survive for another year before I do it with my part-time studies on Master? Hope so because I will have thoughts on the next level after the study. For time being, let's stick back the plan which I had in mind during my third year of undergraduate.
Before I miss out, I would like to thank my previous life that prep me with plans even though I need to go through pains and bitter moments. Just let my passion kept burning as it is but not fading away.
And I stay...
*Berkhidmat untuk UTAR*
(English: Ready to serve for UTAR)
Monday, March 5, 2012
(Photo credit by leenik/deviantart)
It has been a long time I type something due to my hectic workload and travelling period from Kampar to Ipoh. Wanna blurt some off my rants actually but hard to explain in the proper manner so I just make it short and simple.
For the past 7 months that I've been working as a lab officer (position known in my campus is 'Assistant Laboratory Manager'), I learnt lots of stuffs and have the high and low experience. From the wackiest scene made by my students and facing my bosses on jobs that I've never encounter with minimal guidance, I would say it was a hell of a ride. In fact, I like the most is my colleagues who share laughters and discuss matter around without having politics.
(I'm not advocating the book, I mean the 'title')
What I can hope to see in my future is producing a laboratory professional, but what I see in present is way off the road. Hurt or not, I want to say that the batch of student I had currently came from a generation called 'Spoon fed generation'.
Yeah, it's my quote of the year.
Plus I've encounter several students who are not just only disobey your words, they even challenge me back. See the picture? Perhaps they thought that once they paid me to do the job, I have to be like a servant. Sorry, I was paid to teach you to become a professional in a society, not a dung. Even I was being paid with a decent salary, I know my purpose for being here as a teacher and lab coordinator. It's way too different compare to my batch as we do and learn things most from ourselves, not by just ask to do for it. So, suck it up. I won't change my way of doing my work...
Next things is about my working place management. Yes, I was being told and experiencing the hectic procedures with no guidance from the upper personnels. They even don't bother to guide me properly on doing things and ending up I was being scold for nothing. Plus, a letter that will compromise my confirmation interview. My (upper) boss said it wasn't a big deal on getting that letter but hell yeah, it matters to me. Mostly. So, as a good lesson, I won't start my engine doing things unless I'm in the right track and procedures. Enough saying on saving someone's ass and get my ass hot red.
Back to the main topic, my journey is kind of foggy but hey, I told myself that I accept challenges and learn how to face it. Nothing can beat me down, even I fall. It just a matter of time that I crawl up back, stand firmly and move on confidently.
P.S.: Sorry if my post contains quite a number of cursing words but it's my expression. Just
strikethrough those disturbing words and arrange a better words in your mind, will ya? Thanks XOXO.